I keep hearing little things but she’s not there 😔

Lulu had nose bleeds and the vet said it’s allergies. But I noticed she was struggling to climb the stairs and panting alot. Then on a Monday night I lifted Lulu up on the bed and this lump appeared from nowhere 😔.

I took her to the vet and told me she’s an old girl and cancer and to put her to sleep. I had to go home by myself I’ve had no family support. If I get upset my mother shuts my emotions down always have.

I feel so alone and lost. Guilty heartbroken and sinking in grief I’ve been bed rotting since because I can’t face doing anything in the flat it’s completely shut me down.

I miss her so much it’s unbelievable. I didn’t grieve like Im doing for my own father’s passing. Nothing feels the same anymore without my darling Lulu. She was such a beautiful dog and so pretty .

She was a fawn Frenchie and loved to snuggle in but then she would go in her own space to sleep. I would give anything right now to have her back. I want her to know that she saved me when came into my life.

I just wish they’d been honest about her age when they gave her to me. We had been homeless for most of that time. I then moved into a flat and it was supposed to be our happy time and then I had to leave the vet and come home to her bowls and toys . I cry every single day I’ve lost all the will inside me.

I’m so tierd’ but I’m struggling to sleep.nobody has supported me since and I just go through it all alone. It’s alot and overwhelming and so difficult without her.

My heart is in pieces . 💞 Lulu my darling I love you and I hope when it’s my time you’ll be there waiting for me with fudge.

He was my Yorkshire terrier and I had him for nearly 17 years he passed January 2024 Lulu came to me in the April 2024. So I’ve lost a lot in a short time.

My fur babies were everything to me my safe place now I’m just lost in my bed rotting and nothing feels like home without them both 😔