I want him back it doesn’t seem real

I’m at Pete when he was really on his eyes when you open I saw him drop in backwards all this huge dog house and I just fell in love with him.

A friend of mine had him and I told him when he got strong enough I was bringing him home with me. I was surprised when one day he said take him home.

You have been through everything together when I had everything, it felt on top of the world to when I lost everything and felt at the bottom of the pit when he got older he was having trouble breathing from coughing so much he had IVDD and him and I both separation anxiety, he had a collapsing trachea along with a few other problems some of the very hard difficult and unimaginable decision to let them go to sleep.

I stayed with him the whole time. It was just like having one of my children put to sleep and in a since he was my child, he was my baby if I had not have done that he could’ve suffocated here at home and I could not live through that and I didn’t want him to suffer through that I don’t know it’s selfish of me. I just want him back.

I just want it backi miss him so  much I don’t care about anything anymore. I don’t wanna care. I just want my best friend back